Love Is In the Freaking Air

Sorry I couldn’t come up with a better title. Yep, it’s Feb alright. Bright explosions of pink and red, various heart shapes every corner you turn. Declarations of love of differing degrees, poems, songs, blah blah blah. It’s the last of the holiday trifecta, Valentines. And of course it’s my 26th year of solitude. Not that I have not experienced love (I say that to myself a lot LOL), but it would be kind of nice to NOT sit this holiday out, for once.

Nah, I guess I’m being very sentimental lately because there’s not much development in my life or in my career or music that can divert my attention from my seemingly endless floating existence. See even my writing sounds miserable.

Perhaps I can spice things up a bit myself, you know, and not wait for some stuff to change, I can bring a date over to that Couples Fellowship on the 25th and shell out an extra 70 Bucks. I know, frugality kills romance.

But who should I bring? There are prospects, but I don’t want to get into something I can’t exactly commit to. It wouldn’t be fair to the girl would it, that I brought her there as an accessory? And I think it would be a little inappropriate that I bring a “date” who’s not my girlfriend to a function that celebrates love in all its radiant and at times awkward glory. I mean, it’s a Couples Fellowship, the title clearly denotes the specifications and the conditions of the said “date”. Moreover I have what, 2 weeks to get a girlfriend? I had 26 years, give or take a few, to get one, what makes you think I have the capacity to do that in less time?

You know what, forget it, I’m being super lazy. My friend Aileen tells me I should never get a girlfriend because I will not have time for her. She’s a little right. I have so much stuff going on, although right now it’s a bit idle, but when things start stirring up again (like the Don Moen gig, Trinity Exams/Concert, Music covers etc.) I’m going to be distracted for a while.

See I have a choice peeps, as my wonderful friend Aileen put it: Music or Love life. Both demand a degree of focus, time, effort etc. So if I wanted a date, an appropriate date to the Couples Fellowship on the 25th, I’m going to have to suck it up. But if I want my music to take flight, at any level of course, I’m going to have to devote most of my free time to it. Well I have a full time job and if you consider the travel time as work, that’s around 12 hours, and I have about 6 hours or less to practice my piano, vocalize etc etc. It leaves no room for TV I tell ya, that’s why I watch while I workout.

I don’t know what to love more, LOVE or MUSIC. Love is exciting with its dizzying pace and errupting volatile emotions, sometimes unmanageable. However music and me, a little Michael Jackson bit here folks, just go together seamlessly. I don’t have to try so hard, the relationship is natural.

I’m straying from the topic. SO, Valentines, what am I going to do? I can show up at the event unescorted, by my lonesome, like I’ve always had, or I can grab a random girl on the street and be just like everyone else: celebrating the joy of love and the warmth of a kindred soul……….Hallmark Moment barf.

Anyway, even if I do show up alone. I still get to raid the buffet table, which is always a good alternative…a caloric suicide yes but hey just because my heart is starving for romance doesn’t mean my tummy has to go hungry.

Cheers,

rj

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